What is a Miracle?
What is a Miracle?
People Might say...
It is the blessing,
of each passing day.
What is a Miracle?
I want to know.
It is the Blessing...
And He loves me so.
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Reflections
Reflections
Deny me my sanity
Shred my faith.
Removes my vanity.
Reflections
Remind me of the pain
Molest my fears
Reveals the blood stain.
Reflections
Show the knife at my feet
Tear my eyes out
Expose a bloody sheet
Reflections
Make me ever so blue
Creep slowly in…and
Remind me of what I did to you.
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Perversions
Hair the color of blood dipped in death.
The Masters' Apprentice plays Opeth.
A little devil in you so slain,
Give me your fucking pain!
Go ahead slap me, I want you to. Pull my hair, I want you to.
Put me on my knees, make me your whore. I want you to.
I want to see your brutality played out on my veins.
I want you to show me your shame.
Play your games on my skin, a real blood drought.
Dig your way thru my mind and eat your way out.
Tell me what I want… show me what I need.
Put me on my fucking knees.
Make me beg for it, force me down on it. Show me how I need it.
Make my blood flow, no time for fucking love.
Cut your lip, force a kiss.
Then make me taste what you're made of.
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Innate Corruption
Incredible nights
I pictured in life
the sun in your hair
the moon in your eyes
your beauty scares me
away from all that is real.
My thoughts were so clear
I thought we were happy
you said let's take some time
I think I'm loosing my mind
our star has fallen
leaving me helpless and blind.
Unwelcomed tears
blurs my vision of you
drowning my eyes
from what we've been through
my knees are bleeding
staining the home of our dreams.
The hallways of heartache
are dented and cracked
to the room of our passion
we'll never go back
the foundation is crumbling
turning this mansion
a shack.
The raindrops of mercy
fall from the sky
my wings are on fire
unavailing to fly
our flame has dissolved
I'm left without light.
An aroma of vexation
creeps through my skin
sweats of dispassion
fabricated within
you're a distant memory
my original sin.
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White Walls of My Mind
I induldge in my fantasies as I lay there, pushing away reality as far as I dare. I close my eyes and open my mind, traveling to a world which only I could find.
I fly in the mists over unknown lands, over snow-covered peaks and rich coloured sands. My body transforms into a brilliant creature... with wings and beauty in every detailed feature.
In the mists I flew with my hopes and dreams, when suddenly my mind filled with horrific screams. My body gave a shudder as I fell from those skys; pulled to the ground I was burnt, I heard my cries.
I opened my eyes at the impact of the fall, only to find myself between those white cushioned walls.
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Anger #5
Whisper to God your prayers
to keep away the nightmares
Then dare to look inside
in that place where you hide
So wipe away the tears
and tell me all your fears
to compare them all to mine
you'll watch me cross the line
Show me the wrists that you slit
and tell me about your pit
then look deep into my eyes
and see where real pain lies
I know you can't compare
with my evil stare
So silence to all your lies
I'm deaf to all your cries
For you I can't feel
because your pain's not real
You may think you're dead
but it's all inside your head
Let time remove your tears
and get yourself away from here
because it's you that I seek
to feed the small & weak
It's now things turn bleak...
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Constantly, I think of absurdities
Sometimes the curiosities that float in the air choke me. People rush and stammer so much, I am walking on them. The great fall of society is that they are not consistent. Constantly I think of absurdities.
-- There is so much I could say, but sometimes I get tired of saying it. What is the point of repeating it, I am only noise, a slow vibration in my own ears.
I am so distant from "people". I scare myself, not because I am crazy but because I fear I don't know the difference.
I don't know if I am quiet because I am a "gentle soul" or I fear what vulgarities will come out of my mouth were I to unleash my thoughts on the human race.
I don't want to kill, rape or pillage.
I want my revenges, I hold grudges, and I make stupid faces. Sometimes, I don't smile just to please others , nor do I make it a point to prevent someone from having a bad day just because I am.
I don't cry at movies, and I am not concerned with who died, or the latest gossip. I find...
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Desolate
I'll never forget the old tin wall.
The darkest shadows become light with your smiling face.
The nights we lay together, your warm embrace.
The beatles, always we did sing, Laughter and an old porch swing.
The talk of old times, simple pleasures and funny rhymes.
I wish I could see you smile, I wish I could see you run...
But you, you left and you used your gun.
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Lady Poet
I guess that’s it...
there is no poem tonight.
I left out wine and cheese
and she never showed up
I even conjured up visions
of various women
both in degrading sexual positions
and in respectful attire.
I thought about the end
the big end
of humans and our fatal flaws
I thought about the beginning
of time
and the great big mysterious mystery
that will always be lurking and making
no sense in that curious knowing way
as if it has a consciousness to it
like its fucking with us
I thought about all the shit jobs
and all the directionless young adults
and old adults
I had all these things placed out
and at reach for any type of discussion
that could have arrived
I even did things today
like flirted with that girl who sold me a coffee
I observed the whole encounter
because maybe my earlier topics
were too heavy and dark
and perhaps the fucking poem
wanted to observe everyday things
she had freckles
but apparently that was not ’t good enough
for a Lady Poet.
She had better things to do
maybe she went to a rock and roll show
and...
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